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1st. (19th). Saturday. Fair.
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Excited all day long about deciding the question. whether or not I should get a set of Shakespeare thus using up more than 1/3 of Mrs. Hoss' gift.
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2nd. (20th). Sunday. Fair.
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Attended the W.E. S.S and the morning service. After dinner at Dr. Baskerville's went to the Pen. S.S. as usual.
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3rd. (21st). Monday. Fair and cool.
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Finding it hard to my health and study to be interrupted in sleep by the presence of a room mate (on account of my nervousness) I had to take a room by myself on the fifth floor, Room 169.
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4th. (22d). Tuesday. Fair.
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Spent 2 hours in the morning in fixing up the new room.
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In the afternoon went down to town and got a set of Hudson's Shakespeare.
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Mr. Yoshioka from Jap. came to the Hall. today. He spent the night in my room. He is a very nice fellow and speaks English very well.
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5th. (23d). Wednesday. Fair and cold.
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So tired that I had to rest immediately after supper till 9:30.
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6th. (24th). Thursday. Fair and warm.
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In the p.m. from 4 to 6 accompanied Yoshioka to the town to show him a dry-goods store.
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7th. (25th). Friday. Fair and warm.
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After supper the W.H.M.S. delegates to the Interseminary Mission Convention gave their reports to the Society. Brockman, one of the delegates, gave the characteristics of the Convention under: (1) The intelligence and education of the members of the Convention; (2) Conviction-intelligent, not wild, or romantic or sentimental; (3) Push-energy; (4) Humble reliance on the help of God.
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Brockman is a finest fellow in W.H. In fact, the characteristics which he ascribed to the Convention are, I think, as well found in him.
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Was told that O.E. Brown went to China, refusing a full professorship which the Board of Trustees had offered to him. I don't think I could have done the same.
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8th. (26th). Saturday. Fair and warm.
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Recit. and Society attendance as usual.
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9th. (27th). Sunday. Fair and almost hot. Wind all day long.
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Attended the W.E. S.S. and the morning service. After dinner went to the Pen. S.S. as usual. Attended the Christian Endeavor Society after supper.
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Wrote to Dr. Allen. After thanking him for the interest he takes in my education, I said: "As to the choice of the school, I shall leave it altogether to your judgment. Any of the colleges you named, will, I presume, suit my purpose. In your own time, please let me know where and how I may proceed for the accomplishment of my object. Having said this much, I may only add that were I to consult my own inclinations, I would prefer Ensory and Henry, Va. or Emory, Ga. to others. When I was in Shanghai, my chief care was to be out of debt. But, once in, since I came here, my fear is that I may have to stop before getting an education. The moment I leave the U.S. I shall bid farewell to all facilities and opportunities for college training. This makes me anxious for taking some academic studies in a smaller school."
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10th. (28th). Monday. Rained some early in the morning. Gloomy all day long.
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11th. (29th). Tuesday. Rained in the morning. Gloomy all day long.
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Received15 from the kind lady through Dr. Baskerville. By the way, I must not think myself friendless-who ever saw a friendless man thus supplied? God be thanked for these miraculous provisions.
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12th. (1st of 10th Moon). Wednesday. Gloomy and chilly all day long.
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Drizzled some in the night.
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13th. (2nd). Thursday. Gloomy in the a.m. Cleared up in the p.m.
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Recit. usual, except under Dr. T. who has gone to his conference.
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14th. (3rd). Friday. Gloomy.
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Frank Jones has been sick for some time; today he is said to be critically dangerous. From the first of his illness the boys have been requested to be quiet and today the request has been emphasized in verbal and written notices. Yet I am surprised and disgusted at the indifference with which the boys have been treating the request by having walking, singing and whistling. If they do not do better I shall feel much disappointed.
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15th. (4th). Saturday. Rained all day with short intervals of stop.
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Recit. and Society attendance as usual.
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For the past week or so I have been in a gloomy state of mind and spirit-full of doubts, uncertainties and irritations.
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16th. (5th). Sunday. Rained some. Gloomy all day long.
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Attended the W.E. S.S. and the morning as usual. Taught the Pen. S.S. in the p.m. as usual. One of the pupils gave me a tooth pick. Came back dissatisfied with myself and with the world and went to bed at 4.
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17th. (6th). Monday. Rained all the a.m.
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Wrote to Prof. Bonnell telling him what Dr. Allen had said about my going into another college.
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18th. (7th). Tuesday. Bright and cold.
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Felt thankful for the enjoyments of. life and for Christ who died for me that I might know the problems of life and death. With God and future, life has meaning and death loses its sting. Without God all is chaos. Does not Christ deserve my love and gratitude who endured shame and mockery and cross that I may have this hope and this future?
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19th. (8th). Wednesday. A beautiful day.
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In trying to write a sermon on the 20th verse of Rev. Ⅲ for Dr. Smith, I had a most sweet experience of God's love. My soul, all this day, has really enjoyed religion. True religion is simply this-to have God in our hearts. Isn't this simple? Open our hearts to Him, and that's all. Isn't religion an easy thing to get? Give me this experience of thy love of thy presence always and I am satisfied. My soul which had for the few days past been tossed about on the gloomy sea of doubts in regard to the complicated problems of life and death, found today rest and conscious joy never-before-known. God be thanked for this.
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20th. (9th). Thursday. Beautiful day.
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Toiled most of the day in writing an essay on the Will for Dr. Tillet.
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21st. (10th). Friday. A beautiful day.
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Had to go to bed at 12:30 having only then finished an essay on Confucius and his teachings for the Dial. Society.
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22d. (11th). Saturday. A beautiful day and night.
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Recit. and Society attending as usual.
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After class meeting 7:30 p.m. Yoshioka came to my room and talked until 10:30. Enjoyed his company but missed the preparations of Monday's lessons.
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23d. (12th). Sunday. A beautiful day.
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Attended W.E. S.S. Then with Spencer and Louise went to a colored M.E. Ch. and heard an excellent sermon. Taught the S.S. class in Pen. as usual.
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Went to rest at 5 p.m.
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24th. (13th). Monday. A beautiful day and night.
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25th. (14th). Tuesday. A beautiful day and night.
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This morning at about 12:15 Frank Jones died. Only a few (3) weeks ago a boy full of spirit and fire, laughter and life, now lies a cold, senseless corpse! O, the unstability of life!
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At 4 p.m. the University bell tolled as a signal to assemble the boys near the W.H. Library where Frank was laid. After his friends, one by one, had looked on his pale face for the last time, the coffin was escorted by the students and the faculty to the University Chapel.
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A brief memorial service was then conducted and the assembly dismissed. Silence and solemnity marked the whole service.
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26th. (15th). Wednesday. A beautiful day and night.
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27th. (16th). Thursday. A cold but beautiful day and night.
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Today being the Thanksgiving day, the University exercises have been suspended. Had a grand dinner.
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At 3 p.m. with Jordan called on Mrs. Hoss. Came back at 4:45. On our way home we parted company. I took a few minutes' stroll over the open space, west to the University indulging in following meditations.
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1. Time is a great sieve. Nothing but great events escapes being lost thro its meshes. This is true in individual as well as in national life. I am ashamed that I often let my thoughtsbe engrossed by small things that perish.
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2. It is true that the Coreans are superstitious and ignorant. It is true that there are many things about Corea which I can not think of without blushing; and none, of which I may be proud. It is true that the life and work in Corea are not very pleasant. But what matters all that? All these superstitions, blush-able things, un-pleasantnesses are perishable. Time may wipe them away. Only let a great, vitalizing, central truth take hold of the heart and mind of the nation. What can this truth be? God! If I could make this truth. God, the centre of my thoughts, of my life, of my labor. I have something to elevate my nation. Let all petty ambitions and considerations go!
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3. How shall I work? Shall I be contented with 5 or 7 dollars per month in a small mission, thinking that I have done a great work when I shall have preached 2 or 3 sermons in a week and baptized one or two infants in a year? This is, no doubt, very contemptible. But, should Providence put me into this kind of work and I be faithful to my duties in the sight of God and of men, then the meanest sphere of life and labor shall be made great.
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Went to rest from about 6:30 p.m.
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28th. (17th). Friday. A fair and cold day.
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Recit. usual Received a letter from Mr. McIntosh.
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29th. (18th). Saturday. Fair most of the day-not very cold.
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This morning, in the Dial. Society I made the following talk on compulsory education trying to show that all restrictions are not oppressions and that restrictions are necessary for the wellfare of a community:
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"Mr. President and Gentlemen. We have a proverb which says 'A sunstruck ox pants at the moon'. An ox and a man come very near to each other in this respect that they are scared by the mere semblance or shadow of the thing from which they have once suffered. Because the abuse of wholesome restrictions by tyrants has proved a curse to mankind, we are scared by the mere semblance of restrictions. But, Gentlemen, need we be told that all that glisters is not gold? Need we be told that all restrictions are not a curse, and that all freedoms, so called, are not a blessing? Because our Society has the honor of numbering among its members three of the fattest and finest looking men (Campbel, Hardin, Murchison) of the university, does it therefore follow, Mr. President, that every fat and fine looking man belongs to our Society? No: I say, then, all restrictions are not oppressions.
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"One step further, Mr. President, let us see whether restrictions are necessary for the best interest of a society or not.
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"You gather into a school 5 or 6 hundred children. If, Mr. President, every one of them knew that true freedom is not doing what one pleases but controlling his will, if, in short, every student knew what is right and do it, then you would need no laws or regulations. But, Gentlemen, such a group of children has never yet been seen in this world. So, in practice, for the best interest of each and all students you have to resort to such laws and by-laws as these:
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1. Every student is required to have no less than 14 hours and no more than 21 hours per week.
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2. No student is allowed to steal a bird's nest or a co-ed's heart.
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3. No student is allowed to cut any recitation, either in the chem. room below or in the math room above.
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4. No student is allowed to cut gym or Chapel or benches or desks or any furniture under the penalty of being sent home to cut wood.
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"Nor are these restrictions or compulsions found necessary only in a school. They are needed for a community, composed of 50 or 60 millions of grown men and women. If, Mr. President, each and every one of the community knew that his or her best interest is promoted by the wellbeing of the whole Society, that his or her true freedom consists not in doing what he or she pleases but in controlling his or her will; if, in short, every one knew what is right and did it, then Gentlemen, you would need no police, no courts, no laws, no regulations, no anything. Now, Gentlemen, doesn't the very fact that you do have all these things in a community prove that restrictions and often compulsive measures are necessary for the best interest of the whole?
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"Now, this being the case, Mr. President, if compulsory education is proved-and it has been amply proved to be a blessing to the community-why shoudn't it be adopted by the U.S.? Mr. President, if there is a nation in this world intelligent enough to see freedom in restrictions and opression in false freedom; if there is a nation in this world wise enough not to be delighted by mere sound and shadow of liberty or be scared by the semblance of compulsion; if there is a nation intelligent, and wise and strong enough to carry out measures which, tho they seem to infringe on personal liberty at first, work a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory and benefit to the people, if there is such a nation. it is the nation you Gentlemen represent. Such being my conviction, I almost doubt the seriousness of the gentlemen on the negative side in maintaining that compulsory education is harmful because it merely sounds compulsory."
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Felt so tired in the p.m. that I had to take a little rest.
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In talking about pastoral duties with Yoshioka, I found out that the Japanese Christians are already the victims of the faults of their bretheren in America, such as indifference, quarrelling, backbiting among church members.
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30th. (19th). Sunday. Fair and cold.
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After W.E. S.S I came back to my room and read Miss
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Review Taught the P. S.S. class in the p.m. as usual. Attended the dedication service of the W.E. Bapt. Church.
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