Shewasthelast, exceptingthelittleboysatthecottage, shewastheverylast, theonlyremainingoneofallthathadfilledandanimatedbothhouses, ofallthathadgivenUppercrossitscheerfulcharacter. A fewdayshadmade a changeindeed!
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IfLouisarecovered, itwouldallbewellagain. Morethanformerhappinesswouldberestored. Therecouldnotbe a doubt, tohermindtherewasnone, ofwhatwouldfollowherrecovery. A fewmonthshence, andtheroomnowsodeserted, occupiedbutbyhersilent, pensiveself, mightbefilledagainwithallthatwashappyandgay, allthatwasglowingandbrightinprosperouslove, allthatwasmostunlikeAnneElliot!
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Anhour's completeleisureforsuchreflectionsasthese, on a darkNovemberday, a smallthickrainalmostblottingouttheveryfewobjectsevertobediscernedfromthewindows, wasenoughtomakethesoundofLadyRussell's carriageexceedinglywelcome; andyet, thoughdesiroustobegone, shecouldnotquittheMansionHouse, orlookanadieutotheCottage, withitsblack, drippingandcomfortlessveranda, orevennoticethroughthemistyglassesthelasthumbletenementsofthevillage, without a saddenedheart. SceneshadpassedinUppercrosswhichmadeitprecious. Itstoodtherecordofmanysensationsofpain, oncesevere, butnowsoftened; andofsomeinstancesofrelentingfeeling, somebreathingsoffriendshipandreconciliation, whichcouldneverbelookedforagain, andwhichcouldneverceasetobedear. Sheleftitallbehindher, allbuttherecollectionthatsuchthingshadbeen.
Therewas a littleawkwardnessatfirstintheirdiscourseonanothersubject. TheymustspeakoftheaccidentatLyme. LadyRussellhadnotbeenarrivedfiveminutesthedaybefore, when a fullaccountofthewholehadburstonher; butstillitmustbetalkedof, shemustmakeenquiries, shemustregrettheimprudence, lamenttheresult, andCaptainWentworth's namemustbementionedbyboth. AnnewasconsciousofnotdoingitsowellasLadyRussell. Shecouldnotspeakthename, andlookstraightforwardtoLadyRussell's eye, tillshehadadoptedtheexpedientoftellingherbrieflywhatshethoughtoftheattachmentbetweenhimandLouisa. Whenthiswastold, hisnamedistressedhernolonger.
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LadyRussellhadonlytolistencomposedly, andwishthemhappy, butinternallyherheartrevelledinangrypleasure, inpleasedcontempt, thatthemanwhoattwenty-threehadseemedtounderstandsomewhatofthevalueofanAnneElliot, should, eightyearsafterwards, becharmedby a LouisaMusgrove.
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Thefirstthreeorfourdayspassedmostquietly, withnocircumstancetomarkthemexceptingthereceiptof a noteortwofromLyme, whichfoundtheirwaytoAnne, shecouldnottellhow, andbrought a ratherimprovingaccountofLouisa. Attheendofthatperiod, LadyRussell's politenesscouldreposenolonger, andthefainterself-threateningsofthepastbecamein a decidedtone, "I mustcallonMrsCroft; I reallymustcalluponhersoon. Anne, haveyoucouragetogowithme, andpay a visitinthathouse? Itwillbesometrialtousboth."
"I thinkyouareverylikelytosufferthemostofthetwo; yourfeelingsarelessreconciledtothechangethanmine. Byremainingintheneighbourhood, I ambecomeinuredtoit."
MrsCroftalwaysmetherwith a kindnesswhichgaveherthepleasureoffancyingherself a favourite, andonthepresentoccasion, receivingherinthathouse, therewasparticularattention.
"Ay, a verybadbusinessindeed. A newsortofwaythis, for a youngfellowtobemakinglove, bybreakinghismistress's head, isnotit, MissElliot? Thisisbreaking a headandgiving a plaster, truly!"
"Now, thismustbeverybadforyou," saidhe, suddenlyrousingfrom a littlereverie, "tobecomingandfindingushere. I hadnotrecollecteditbefore, I declare, butitmustbeverybad. Butnow, donotstanduponceremony. Getupandgooveralltheroomsinthehouseifyoulikeit."
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"Anothertime, Sir, I thankyou, notnow."
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"Well, wheneveritsuitsyou. Youcanslipinfromtheshrubberyatanytime; andthereyouwillfindwekeepourumbrellashangingupbythatdoor. A goodplaceisnotit? But," (checkinghimself), "youwillnotthinkit a goodplace, foryourswerealwayskeptinthebutler's room. Ay, soitalwaysis, I believe. Oneman's waysmaybeasgoodasanother's, butwealllikeourownbest. Andsoyoumustjudgeforyourself, whetheritwouldbebetterforyoutogoaboutthehouseornot."
"Wehavemadeveryfewchangeseither," continuedtheAdmiral, afterthinking a moment. "Veryfew. Wetoldyouaboutthelaundry-door, atUppercross. Thathasbeen a verygreatimprovement. Thewonderwas, howanyfamilyuponearthcouldbearwiththeinconvenienceofitsopeningasitdid, solong! YouwilltellSirWalterwhatwehavedone, andthatMrShepherdthinksitthegreatestimprovementthehouseeverhad. Indeed, I mustdoourselvesthejusticetosay, thatthefewalterationswehavemadehavebeenallverymuchforthebetter. Mywifeshouldhavethecreditofthem, however. I havedoneverylittlebesidessendingawaysomeofthelargelooking-glassesfrommydressing-room, whichwasyourfather's. A verygoodman, andverymuchthegentleman I amsure: but I shouldthink, MissElliot," (lookingwithseriousreflection), "I shouldthinkhemustberather a dressymanforhistimeoflife. Such a numberoflooking-glasses! ohLord! therewasnogettingawayfromone's self. So I gotSophytolendme a hand, andwesoonshiftedtheirquarters; andnow I amquitesnug, withmylittleshavingglassinonecorner, andanothergreatthingthat I nevergonear."