Elizabethhadthesatisfactionofreceivingananswertoherletterassoonasshepossiblycould. Shewasnosoonerinpossessionofitthan, hurryingintothelittlecopse, whereshewasleastlikelytobeinterrupted, shesatdownononeofthebenchesandpreparedtobehappy; forthelengthoftheletterconvincedherthatitdidnotcontain a denial.
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"Gracechurchstreet, Sept. 6.
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"MYDEARNIECE,
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"I havejustreceivedyourletter, andshalldevotethiswholemorningtoansweringit, as I foreseethat a littlewritingwillnotcomprisewhat I havetotellyou. I mustconfessmyselfsurprisedbyyourapplication; I didnotexpectitfromyou. Don't thinkmeangry, however, for I onlymeantoletyouknowthat I hadnotimaginedsuchinquiriestobenecessaryonyourside. Ifyoudonotchoosetounderstandme, forgivemyimpertinence. Youruncleisasmuchsurprisedas I am—andnothingbutthebeliefofyourbeing a partyconcernedwouldhaveallowedhimtoactashehasdone. Butifyouarereallyinnocentandignorant, I mustbemoreexplicit.
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"OntheverydayofmycominghomefromLongbourn, yourunclehad a mostunexpectedvisitor. Mr. Darcycalled, andwasshutupwithhimseveralhours. Itwasalloverbefore I arrived; somycuriositywasnotsodreadfullyrackedasyoursseemstohavebeen. HecametotellMr. GardinerthathehadfoundoutwhereyoursisterandMr. Wickhamwere, andthathehadseenandtalkedwiththemboth; Wickhamrepeatedly, Lydiaonce. Fromwhat I cancollect, heleftDerbyshireonlyonedayafterourselves, andcametotownwiththeresolutionofhuntingforthem. ThemotiveprofessedwashisconvictionofitsbeingowingtohimselfthatWickham's worthlessnesshadnotbeensowellknownastomakeitimpossibleforanyyoungwomanofcharactertoloveorconfideinhim. Hegenerouslyimputedthewholetohismistakenpride, andconfessedthathehadbeforethoughtitbeneathhimtolayhisprivateactionsopentotheworld. Hischaracterwastospeakforitself. Hecalledit, therefore, hisdutytostepforward, andendeavourtoremedyanevilwhichhadbeenbroughtonbyhimself. Ifhehadanothermotive, I amsureitwouldneverdisgracehim. Hehadbeensomedaysintown, beforehewasabletodiscoverthem; buthehadsomethingtodirecthissearch, whichwasmorethanwehad; andtheconsciousnessofthiswasanotherreasonforhisresolvingtofollowus.
"Everythingbeingsettledbetweenthem, Mr. Darcy's nextstepwastomakeyouruncleacquaintedwithit, andhefirstcalledinGracechurchstreettheeveningbefore I camehome. ButMr. Gardinercouldnotbeseen, andMr. Darcyfound, onfurtherinquiry, thatyourfatherwasstillwithhim, butwouldquittownthenextmorning. Hedidnotjudgeyourfathertobe a personwhomhecouldsoproperlyconsultasyouruncle, andthereforereadilypostponedseeinghimtillafterthedepartureoftheformer. Hedidnotleavehisname, andtillthenextdayitwasonlyknownthat a gentlemanhadcalledonbusiness.
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"OnSaturdayhecameagain. Yourfatherwasgone, youruncleathome, and, as I saidbefore, theyhad a greatdealoftalktogether.
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"TheymetagainonSunday, andthen I sawhimtoo. ItwasnotallsettledbeforeMonday: assoonasitwas, theexpresswassentofftoLongbourn. Butourvisitorwasveryobstinate. I fancy, Lizzy, thatobstinacyistherealdefectofhischaracter, afterall. Hehasbeenaccusedofmanyfaultsatdifferenttimes, butthisisthetrueone. Nothingwastobedonethathedidnotdohimself; though I amsure (and I donotspeakittobethanked, thereforesaynothingaboutit), yourunclewouldmostreadilyhavesettledthewhole.
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"Theybattledittogetherfor a longtime, whichwasmorethaneitherthegentlemanorladyconcernedinitdeserved. Butatlastyourunclewasforcedtoyield, andinsteadofbeingallowedtobeofusetohisniece, wasforcedtoputupwithonlyhavingtheprobablecreditofit, whichwentsorelyagainstthegrain; and I reallybelieveyourletterthismorninggavehimgreatpleasure, becauseitrequiredanexplanationthatwouldrobhimofhisborrowedfeathers, andgivethepraisewhereitwasdue. But, Lizzy, thismustgonofartherthanyourself, orJaneatmost.
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"Youknowprettywell, I suppose, whathasbeendonefortheyoungpeople. Hisdebtsaretobepaid, amounting, I believe, toconsiderablymorethan a thousandpounds, anotherthousandinadditiontoherownsettleduponher, andhiscommissionpurchased. Thereasonwhyallthiswastobedonebyhimalone, wassuchas I havegivenabove. Itwasowingtohim, tohisreserveandwantofproperconsideration, thatWickham's characterhadbeensomisunderstood, andconsequentlythathehadbeenreceivedandnoticedashewas. Perhapstherewassometruthinthis; though I doubtwhetherhisreserve, oranybody's reserve, canbeanswerablefortheevent. Butinspiteofallthisfinetalking, mydearLizzy, youmayrestperfectlyassuredthatyourunclewouldneverhaveyielded, ifwehadnotgivenhimcreditforanotherinterestintheaffair.
"I believe I havenowtoldyoueverything. Itis a relationwhichyoutellmeistogiveyougreatsurprise; I hopeatleastitwillnotaffordyouanydispleasure. Lydiacametous; andWickhamhadconstantadmissiontothehouse. Hewasexactlywhathehadbeen, when I knewhiminHertfordshire; but I wouldnottellyouhowlittle I wassatisfiedwithherbehaviourwhileshestaidwithus, if I hadnotperceived, byJane's letterlastWednesday, thatherconductoncominghomewasexactlyof a piecewithit, andthereforewhat I nowtellyoucangiveyounofreshpain. I talkedtoherrepeatedlyinthemostseriousmanner, representingtoherallthewickednessofwhatshehaddone, andalltheunhappinessshehadbroughtonherfamily. Ifsheheardme, itwasbygoodluck, for I amsureshedidnotlisten. I wassometimesquiteprovoked, butthen I recollectedmydearElizabethandJane, andfortheirsakeshadpatiencewithher.
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"Mr. Darcywaspunctualinhisreturn, andasLydiainformedyou, attendedthewedding. Hedinedwithusthenextday, andwastoleavetownagainonWednesdayorThursday. Willyoubeveryangrywithme, mydearLizzy, if I takethisopportunityofsaying (what I wasneverboldenoughtosaybefore) howmuch I likehim. Hisbehaviourtoushas, ineveryrespect, beenaspleasingaswhenwewereinDerbyshire. Hisunderstandingandopinionsallpleaseme; hewantsnothingbut a littlemoreliveliness, andthat, ifhemarryprudently, hiswifemayteachhim. I thoughthimverysly;—hehardlyevermentionedyourname. Butslynessseemsthefashion.
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"Prayforgivemeif I havebeenverypresuming, oratleastdonotpunishmesofarastoexcludemefrom P. I shallneverbequitehappytill I havebeenallroundthepark. A lowphaeton, with a nicelittlepairofponies, wouldbetheverything.
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"But I mustwritenomore. Thechildrenhavebeenwantingmethishalfhour.
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"Yours, verysincerely,
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"M. GARDINER."
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ThecontentsofthisletterthrewElizabethinto a flutterofspirits, inwhichitwasdifficulttodeterminewhetherpleasureorpainborethegreatestshare. ThevagueandunsettledsuspicionswhichuncertaintyhadproducedofwhatMr. Darcymighthavebeendoingtoforwardhersister's match, whichshehadfearedtoencourageasanexertionofgoodnesstoogreattobeprobable, andatthesametimedreadedtobejust, fromthepainofobligation, wereprovedbeyondtheirgreatestextenttobetrue! Hehadfollowedthempurposelytotown, hehadtakenonhimselfallthetroubleandmortificationattendantonsuch a research; inwhichsupplicationhadbeennecessaryto a womanwhomhemustabominateanddespise, andwherehewasreducedtomeet, frequentlymeet, reasonwith, persuade, andfinallybribe, themanwhomhealwaysmostwishedtoavoid, andwhoseverynameitwaspunishmenttohimtopronounce. Hehaddoneallthisfor a girlwhomhecouldneitherregardnoresteem. Herheartdidwhisperthathehaddoneitforher. Butitwas a hopeshortlycheckedbyotherconsiderations, andshesoonfeltthatevenhervanitywasinsufficient, whenrequiredtodependonhisaffectionforher—for a womanwhohadalreadyrefusedhim—asabletoovercome a sentimentsonaturalasabhorrenceagainstrelationshipwithWickham. Brother-in-lawofWickham! Everykindofpridemustrevoltfromtheconnection. Hehad, tobesure, donemuch. Shewasashamedtothinkhowmuch. Buthehadgiven a reasonforhisinterference, whichaskednoextraordinarystretchofbelief. Itwasreasonablethatheshouldfeelhehadbeenwrong; hehadliberality, andhehadthemeansofexercisingit; andthoughshewouldnotplaceherselfashisprincipalinducement, shecould, perhaps, believethatremainingpartialityforhermightassisthisendeavoursin a causewhereherpeaceofmindmustbemateriallyconcerned. Itwaspainful, exceedinglypainful, toknowthattheywereunderobligationsto a personwhocouldneverreceive a return. TheyowedtherestorationofLydia, hercharacter, everything, tohim. Oh! howheartilydidshegrieveovereveryungracioussensationshehadeverencouraged, everysaucyspeechshehadeverdirectedtowardshim. Forherselfshewashumbled; butshewasproudofhim. Proudthatin a causeofcompassionandhonour, hehadbeenabletogetthebetterofhimself. Shereadoverheraunt's commendationofhimagainandagain. Itwashardlyenough; butitpleasedher. Shewasevensensibleofsomepleasure, thoughmixedwithregret, onfindinghowsteadfastlybothsheandherunclehadbeenpersuadedthataffectionandconfidencesubsistedbetweenMr. Darcyandherself.
"I amafraid I interruptyoursolitaryramble, mydearsister?" saidhe, ashejoinedher.
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"Youcertainlydo," sherepliedwith a smile; "butitdoesnotfollowthattheinterruptionmustbeunwelcome."
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"I shouldbesorryindeed, ifitwere. Wewerealwaysgoodfriends; andnowwearebetter."
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"True. Aretheotherscomingout?"
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"I donotknow. Mrs. BennetandLydiaaregoinginthecarriagetoMeryton. Andso, mydearsister, I find, fromouruncleandaunt, thatyouhaveactuallyseenPemberley."
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Sherepliedintheaffirmative.
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"I almostenvyyouthepleasure, andyet I believeitwouldbetoomuchforme, orelse I couldtakeitinmywaytoNewcastle. Andyousawtheoldhousekeeper, I suppose? PoorReynolds, shewasalwaysveryfondofme. Butofcourseshedidnotmentionmynametoyou."
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"Yes, shedid."
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"Andwhatdidshesay?"
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"Thatyouweregoneintothearmy, andshewasafraidhad—notturnedoutwell. Atsuch a distanceasthat, youknow, thingsarestrangelymisrepresented."
"Undoubtedly. DidyouseehimwhileyouwereatLambton? I thought I understoodfromtheGardinersthatyouhad."
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"Yes; heintroducedustohissister."
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"Anddoyoulikeher?"
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"Verymuch."
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"I haveheard, indeed, thatsheisuncommonlyimprovedwithinthisyearortwo. When I lastsawher, shewasnotverypromising. I amverygladyoulikedher. I hopeshewillturnoutwell."
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"I daresayshewill; shehasgotoverthemosttryingage."
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"DidyougobythevillageofKympton?"
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"I donotrecollectthatwedid."
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"I mentionit, becauseitisthelivingwhich I oughttohavehad. A mostdelightfulplace!—ExcellentParsonageHouse! Itwouldhavesuitedmeineveryrespect."
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"Howshouldyouhavelikedmakingsermons?"
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"Exceedinglywell. I shouldhaveconsidereditaspartofmyduty, andtheexertionwouldsoonhavebeennothing. Oneoughtnottorepine;—but, tobesure, itwouldhavebeensuch a thingforme! Thequiet, theretirementofsuch a lifewouldhaveansweredallmyideasofhappiness! Butitwasnottobe. DidyoueverhearDarcymentionthecircumstance, whenyouwereinKent?"
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"I haveheardfromauthority, which I thoughtasgood, thatitwasleftyouconditionallyonly, andatthewillofthepresentpatron."
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"Youhave. Yes, therewassomethinginthat; I toldyousofromthefirst, youmayremember."
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"I didhear, too, thattherewas a time, whensermon-makingwasnotsopalatabletoyouasitseemstobeatpresent; thatyouactuallydeclaredyourresolutionofnevertakingorders, andthatthebusinesshadbeencompromisedaccordingly."
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"Youdid! anditwasnotwhollywithoutfoundation. Youmayrememberwhat I toldyouonthatpoint, whenfirstwetalkedofit."
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Theywerenowalmostatthedoorofthehouse, forshehadwalkedfasttogetridofhim; andunwilling, forhersister's sake, toprovokehim, sheonlysaidinreply, with a good-humouredsmile:
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"Come, Mr. Wickham, wearebrotherandsister, youknow. Donotletusquarrelaboutthepast. Infuture, I hopeweshallbealwaysofonemind."